So..I don't know, Ryan is still smoking, and it's still stressing me out every single day, but I finally got a job at Safeway, and I am doing pretty well in all of my classes, and having my own car is so much easier than having to have someone drive me around. I feel like things might be getting better for me. I really, really hope so. I can't take much more stress or anything bad.. So..I don't know. Other than feeling sick to my stomach and having ladie problems, I feel good. Ryan got back from camping today and I am sosososososo happy because I missed him more than anything in the world. I felt like I was going to die the last three days, but now I feel whole again.